Feel like my family and I have been hit non stop with trouble lately. Do not see an end in sight. We are struggling financially, only have maybe a month or 2 left that we can pay our bills, and that is only is nothing unexpected comes up. I have been having a lot of medical issues. Last fall was chest pains, last couple months, ear and jaw pain. Going through lots of testing to show nothing wrong. Doesn't explain my pain. My husband has a heart condidtion and does not take care of himself. If he is not at work, he is usually a sleep or playing on computer, or his phone. Trying to take care of my 2 kids and 2 dogs, but again money is beyond tight. There are repairs we need to do on our house, again no money. I feel like a failure. I can't take care of the house, my kids, my dogs. It looks like I won't be able to pay monthly bills here soon, let alone anything else that comes up. I don't know what to do. I don't know where God is in all of this. My husband and I seem to have grown apart. We don't talk much anymore, seem to be more roommates than husband and wife. The stress is getting to me. Besides health problems, I have been more apt to get upset at my kids. I don't like being that way. Last year I lost my dad and both grandparents in 3 months. It seems like God has been silent. I wish I knew why.