First time prayer request; I am floundering and would really appreciate someone rallying energy & joy on my behalf.
I am not feeling the Christmas spirit at all this year, feeling dragged down by home and work and caring for an elderly relative.
I know this is the typical caregiver syndrome, and I should seek a support group of some sort, but between these big 3 concerns, I just don't find the time or don't have the energy to make the time to seek one out.
I am really understanding how people with depression can't seem to claw their way out of the pits.
My motivation and ambition are at zero, I am frustrated with my relative & other family members for "putting me" in this situation (I know, that doesn't make sense ... it's not their fault) and relying on only me to be the person to tend to all her needs and make sure caregivers are lined up and doc appts are made, etc etc. In addition the home I am in I rent from her, and there are things that need to be done to keep it up. I am the one responsible for this too.
My time is so short, and my full time job so stressful that I just crash and plop when I get home. Bills have gone unpaid, hers AND mine, and appts that need to be made arent, because I forget about them during work time, then when I remember, it's midnite.
I'm just plain tired and frustrated and I need peace and joy in my heart.
Thank you, prayer warriors. I know you're out there. And I firmly believe someone today will send a prayer up for my flagging spirit