I first want to thank wbgl for all they do. I had two manic episodes within the past eight or so years. Both times I was hospitalized for a month. What followed after was terrible, after the second one I spent two years at home doing nothing, angry with God for so much and the longer I was angry the harder things were. After two years I was merely getting by, I found a job and was trying to get back on my feet again. This was a little over a year ago. I began to share my story after I felt that there were people out there that needed to hear it. I shared how God had helped me through and how he gave me the strength. I then found a job that was a real blessing and things were going great. Im a songwriter and God has been blessing me very heartfelt songs. I have a blog where I shared my full story and have been able to help people in ways I never imagined. Things are getting better. But as of lately I have been struggling with depression. Sometimes I know why and sometimes I do not. I had quit smoking a year ago and I thought whats the point and began agian. I feel lonely and sometimes embarrassed because of my past. I have learned the importance of endurance and some days I am fine.But I could really use prayer because I know that God has something planned, Im not giving up on Him, because he has never given up on me. But it can be really hard. Anyways, there is so much more I wish I could share. Please pray for my struggle. Thanks and God bless.